just BEING THERE for my Daughter; screwing the money, screwing the training, screwing everything i once lived for…now? just being a D-A-D-D-Y

Published on Jan 17, 2013 by in Conscious Parenting, Teachings

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Today, – actually, 3 days ago – Dewa self-created and announced in royalesque voice;

“Guess what Mommy and Daddy!?!??!  And you are NOT going to believe this!!!
My brains are turning 7 on Thursday!!!!…there will be a great Birthday Celebration with Balloons, Cake, and Presents….and YOU – mommy and daddy – are INVITED!!!“

the vocal delivery in which Dewa announced with such unmistakable GLEE that Joy and i were actually INVITED…that we – somehow – made it under her imaginary Velvet Rope into her imaginary version of a Sunset Blvd rolling club VIP Room was done with such deep hearted sincerity?   Joy and i just looked at each other in that parental surrender-to-it-all type of way that i’m sure thousands of Conscious Parents do each day (and sadly, millions more parents do NOT do each day) and we all three jumped up and down rejoicing in our tiny living room…as Dewa’s  ear-to-ear grin and squeals of family connection delight were anything but tiny!

so, since it was Daddy/Dewa Day today (as Joy teaches Yin Yoga each Thursday at YogaDurango*)
ilg once again prayed silently and repetitiously to the Deities to keep my deeeeeeply pressing business/student matters on hold yet once again, and released into a full afternoon/evening of Dewa Sadhana.

ilg made balloons, a book for her brains, we did pony rides on her Santa-delivered spring-loaded rocking pony (currently named “Beauty” though it changes sometimes daily), i called Kroegers Hardware (where my precious yet now dead Dad worked for many years) and had them put on hold OPERATION™, the board game, because i felt that would be an Appropriate Present for a 7 year-old brain in a 5 year-old Rinpoche,   gift wrapped it,  got some other presents (including a turquoise-colored t-shirt emblazoned with “Genuine Cowgirl;  Durango, Colorado) while Joy got a birthday cake (a sprinkled doughnut with candles).

We were set for my daughter’s brains 7th birthday!

How stinkin’ hilarious and beautiful and awes(om)e is that!?!?!

ilg is re-discovering the “5” in “51”
by simply listening, responding, and playing with Dewa; my live-in residential Dharma Teacher.

oh,  ilg will Speak True here…

it is BEYOND HARD for me to put to the side again and again, and endlessly again pressing business/student matters in order to just BE HERE NOW for my daughter…yet,  i pray each day, several times through my practices,  that my faithful Devoted Students GET THE TEACHING….

and the Teaching is this:

if you are a Parent?

your money-making/result-driven performance is gonna go waaaaaay down,
yet,

and MOST IMPORTANTLY?

and your face to face time/interaction/presence/teaching/playfulness with your chi-ld?

must

must

must

go waaaaay up…

no

matter

what.

this is known as conscious parenting…

just BEING THERE, screwing the money,  screwing the training, screwing everything but being (in my case) a genuine, gut deep, no-matter-what

D-A-D-D-Y

head bowed,
Dewa’s Daddy

*man i wish i could take that class, i sooooo need it!…

One Response to “just BEING THERE for my Daughter; screwing the money, screwing the training, screwing everything i once lived for…now? just being a D-A-D-D-Y”

  1. Roberto Crespo says:
    January 23, 2013 at 12:41 am

    Namaste Coach…yet again, as if you were practicing Yoga here in sunny SoCal and talking to us students regularly, you hit the nail on the head. I just spent 5 days flying solo with my twin yoginis while my wife took a trip. I have cherished every opportunity I’ve had to just BE THERE ever since I was layed off back in September and started freelancing (free being the operative word) and the past 5 days were magical. We visited some museums, the Shuttle Endeavour, the beach, and caught Peter Pan at the El Capitan down in Hollywood. We built many a Lego structure, built obstacle courses for our dogs, and had fabulous tea and cupcakes at the their cafe. This left me with a smile on my face every night but not much energy to get work done, though I managed some in the wee hours (like now). My training was limited to some rounds of Sun Salutations in the morning and some meditation.

    Today they headed back to school, and with all my free time I……..pruned our apricot tree, trimmed down our bougainvillea, raked leaves, and layed out a small planter.

    Tomorrow I begin again, endlessly…..with a big smile on my face.

    Here’s to life,

    Yogi RC

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